How is it that I still feel the feelings I do

How is it that you’re the first thought 

When I wake up

and my last one

When I go to bed.

Leave my head, I love you 

Go away, I love you

I hate you, I love you

Meh

I have so much say 

But I can’t 

Words can’t

express the feelings

Nor can my actions

because they did 

before.

Now I’m run out

Nothing to say

No more to give

You took it all 

and let me fall

My dream today made me wake 

up.

I see you and it hurts

I want to be loved like I did

I want the same

back. 

So I’m a little drunk

and I’m here

again

by myself and to think

I could be with

you

But I’m not 

Why?

I did it again

Its my fault

I laid my heart down again

Why? 

I ask myself that

I deserve so much

But you walk all over me

What am I?

I’m so tired

I tried 

Stop loving you,

not thinking…

of you.

It hurts and I want it

to go away

I know

I KNOW

…what you do

I have to go 

Just go.